I'm KIND OF pissed off. Not really, but yeah, my mood kinda changed. I checked my mail and saw the announcement from one of my filipino classmate named Marey. The thing is, she's the beadle of our fil class and in the start of her group message, she was saying that she knows she's not supposed to make an announcement because she's "JUST" a beadle but she'll announce that bla bla bla. And i remember our conversation yesterday (Saturday) about this.

Maybe it's because of my nature not to have any adversaries or whatever, but I messaged her in my facebook account. I said "ako ba pinariringgan mo sa message mo? Sorry :(" (Am i the one who you were referring to in your message? Sorry) because I had the feeling that it was me. She said,

"Let's just say nabastusan lang ako na inuutusan mo ako. :) Director si Jie, hindi niya ako inuutusan, but there you go bossing me around, maybe sometimes you should really try to be less bossy. I'm the beadle this time, respect lang sa pakikitungo. You know I love you so much as a friend, but working with you is hard I could say. Love you. Am just ranting. Don't get mad now.:))"

In short, she thinks I'm bossy. So naturally i said i'm sorry and all that. Which i really am. I said i'd take note of it and told her to remind me if i'm being bossy again... Then i sent another message. I said,

"btw, uhm, ano ung snabi ko? i mean, ano ung utos ko? (sorry for that again)"

Translation: what did i ordered you to do? Because i HONESTLY didn't know that i was bossy. I'm actually NOT bossy. If i tell people what to do, I do it with authority BECAUSE i have to. Because sometimes, in life, you really have to. So anyway. I asked her right? I just got ticked off by her reply. She said,

"[me] Oy, sali ka sa committe.

[Marey] Ang alam ko hindi kasi kasali kapag beadle. But I'll ask sir.

[me] Malamang kasalai kayo, eeevaluate NAMIN kayo e. Hindi naman porket beadle ka, wala ka na gagawin."

First of all, my tone was not bossy. It was light and friendly naman. i was asking her to join a committee like i was her to join Psyche (my org in school). Btw, I didn't really emphasize the NAMIN ha, she just used all caps. Second, it's true naman e! I mean, just think about it! If they (the two beadles) didn't sign up for a committee, what WILL they do? Honestly! Nothing right? So while WE prepare for the play, I'm not even sure they'll attend the practice (though they probably will but the point is...) WHAT WILL THEY DO?

I'm not sure if it's just me or her pride is easily hurt. You gotta admit, in this project I'm, for lack of a better word, more superior in position. Naturally, I'd remind her of HER duties. And she gets pissed off. Come on! I didn't do anything wrong! Sheesh!

WOOOHOOO! I PASSED ATENEO!! Yeah! With a long story to go with it.

Because it's like this.. January 10, 2009 is Lucia Ruales' 18th birthday celebration. And I was supposed to come. UNFORTUNATELY, the night before, while I was doing something in the laptop, my mom texted me (she and daddy went out that night). She forwarded me tita Fae's message. She said that it's lolo Ceasar's 70th birthday on Jan. 10 also.. And I was like "what?! Pupunta ba tau?!" I seriosuly texted that exact message to my mom. She replied with a "yes."  then I said "including me?"  She replied, "ayaw mo bang makita sila geca?" and I was like "mumy, you didn't answer the question po." and then she said "yes." and of course I didn't texted her back.

I went to my brother's room because kuya Cham is there and he's the one I consult with at times like these. Times were mommy, no matter how much I love her, seems UNFAIR!! (remeber the YFC thing? yeah. her fault!!!) But then mommy called on the phone. When she said hello, her tone was soothing. Which means she already knows what she'd done. But I didn't even bother to cover my voice with whatever emotion. We  talked on the phone for a few minutes. She even used the psychological thing parents do to their child like "aalis na sila Geca, matagal mo xang di makikita" and "madami ka pang debut na pupuntahan" and then the MOST ANNOYING thing she did to me was she made me ADMIT that I was going.. She made me choose between the two and I know that blood is thicker than water and all that but.. Hello! She IS still my friend!! And I asked her last year pa about  that  debut!! It was all SO frustrating.

When it was time to say goodbye, I realized that I still didn't cover the emotions showing through my voice but I didn't care. And when she said goodbye, I just hung up the phone.I mean, what was I supposed to say, goodbye? What's so good  about it? Isn't there a bad bye or something? None right? Then I guess I did what I had to do: NOT TELL A LIE. and by lie, I mean saying even just 'bye' which is a shortcut for 'goodbye' which is not my mood back then.

Then of course I went back up to my brother's room and this time, I actually cried. Come on!! That was SO UNFAIR and INCONSIDERATE of her! Hmpf! So anyway.. a few minutes passed and I stopped crying.. I called Lucia and told her everything, from the text to the crying. I also told Verna but that was not until I was about to sleep already, which another part of the story .

So anyway, where was I? Oh right.. after calling Lucia, I went back to kuya Cham. And then while lying in kuya Cheno's bed, I texted ate Mariel, kuya Cham's kabarkada. According to kuya Chami kasi, she's the one who has class the next day. Eh the next  day is the ACET results. I asked her a favor via text. Then I told her that the results will be posted at the Blue Eagle Gym by 8:00am. Then she said ok and that was that.

Afterwards, I read 'Dear John' by Nicolas Sparks until it was midnight to one o'clock already and my parents' arrived. Kuya Agi opened the gate (of course, daddy was here at the time) and neither mommy nor daddy heard me go inside my room (I was, after all, reading in my room). I locked my room and went to the bathroom. At that time, I was thinking of an excuse why I'm still up. But I fiured that they probably think that I'm mad at them, which I was, and I was gonna sleep in my room (not true. I was going to sleep between my brothers thank you very much). So I let them think that way. After they settled in their room, without kissing me or anything (which I didn't mind), I sneaked off to my brothers' room and slept there (noting that I set my alarm at 8:00am).

The next day...

When I woke up, around 8:15-8:30am,  I immediately looked at my cellphone. There's a message. From ate Mariel. She said "congrats li'l sis! AB psych.. c u soon!" (not the exact message but it's almost the same).. one second.. five seconds... WHAAAAAT? I PASSED???? WOOOHOOOOO!!!! I PASSED!!! I PASSED!!!!!! in your face kuya Cham! I  ACTUALLY passed! wooohooo!

I sat up straight.. kuya Cham saw me (he's still lying down beside me) and, of course I told him and I didn't get to see his reaction because I stood up quickly.. The funny thing is, I didn't know what to do! I was THAT excited!   THANK YOU LORD THANK YOU LORD THANK YOU LORD!

Then, still not know what I was supposed to do, I went out of the room. I saw daddy, along the corridor and, conscious of what happened last night and unable to stop myself, I said "hi daddy!" and he looked startled which made me laugh in the inside, but for just a few milliseconds, and, as if noting from his expression that I should tell him what the hell is wrong with me, I shouted "PUMASA AKO ATENEO!!"